Friday night, I'd been there 6 days, I was beginning to enjoy this whole "music all day" thing, not to mention letting someone else make meals and clean up. Friday night was Camper Concert night. Ooh, as I said in my first post, I signed up for this whole week to help me work on confidence, and what better way than to sign myself up to perform? I figure, hey, I've come this far, paid a whole lot to get here, and learned enough to keep me going for a good long time. I really need to take this one last step. (And as I told my students, I really needed to put myself in their position, to appreciate fully what I put them through every spring.)
My group and I had worked on the Schubert all week. In fact, everyone I played with all week long worked on the Schubert with me. I'm sure they were all fairly tired of playing the Schubert, but I was fired up to show off what we had learned! Our group played 7th on the program: lots of time to get nervous, right? Someone had suggested that eating a banana would work similarly to a beta blocker, calming the nerves, at least a bit. I grabbed a banana for dessert that evening.
I don't know if the banana beta blocker was the ticket, or if I had convinced myself not to freak out, but whatever it was, I sat at the piano, with the violinist at my right shoulder and the 'cellist in front of the piano, and we did it! I gave the starting breath, and away we went, piano talking to 'cello talking to violin and back to piano. We communicated, we blended, we were gr-r-r-eat! A benefit of playing chamber music is the chance to cover up your mistakes. Oh, I'm sure we each had a few oopses, but we all kept going, maintained a decent tempo, and counted when we got lost. As long as someone was playing, who's the wiser? We started together, we stayed together, and we ended together to a great round of applause.
I know we each had fun, and I developed that confidence which I so blatantly lacked earlier in the week. Thank you, Summertrios, for providing the opportunity and the venue to overcome my stage fright, to learn the beauty of chamber music, and to experience the joy of playing with fellow musicians. It was well worth the expense. Let me add as I close, the final day, while other groups were practicing for the second Camper Concert, I sightread all day. What a hoot that was! I am so glad I went to summer camp this year.
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